Almost there!

No, I don't mean Layla but it's something great all the same! After 7 months of building, 6 months living with my mom and 10 months since we started the process, our brand new house will be ready on Monday. I am really psyched about it and best of all...Rob is home to do the unpacking! I cannot believe that our dream house is almost a reality.

Holy !@#$

Okay, it's official I'm not really excited about this adoption process any more. I want Layla don't get me wrong! I want to be a mommy and I will wait the 3-7 years they're predicting in order for it to happen BUT the specialness of this journey has slowly eroded. Every day there are more questions about when and I'm sick to death of saying one year, a year and a half, two years. Now I just say I don't know. Is there a way to gain back the happy feeling? Perhaps a full months worth of referrals would do the trick.

The Neverending Story

I've been neglecting my blog. I have a million reasons why but I guess the biggest one is denial. It's hard to come to terms with the realization that Layla may not be in my arms until 2011 or 2012. Yep, that's the latest news in this saga. Many agencies started circulating letters to their clients last week with this latest update. I simply find it difficult to remain positive in the face of such blatant negativity. As a result I guess the blog doesn't really make much sense...maybe when we're closer to our referral???
I think I may switch the focus of the blog now and then. Of course I need to do a few updates regarding things my SP has sent and a gorgeous outfit Poppy Bernie had delivered from China. Oh,Nanny Cathy has Layla's OHGWQ started...perhaps things aren't as bleak as they seem.

We're Out of Review!!

It's hard to believe it but it's absolutely true...we're officially out of the Review Room! This means that in the eyes of the CCAA we are good to go!!! Of course our dossier moves on to the Matching Room and waits (and waits) on a shelf until they hit our LID date. Right now the CCAA are working on files logged in after December 14, 2005. It's a slow process but it does happen. I'd like to think that next Christmas would find us only a few short months away from holding Layla in our arms but I think that's extremely unlikely. All I can think is that there's a plan that's set out for Rob and me...one that we have to trust and follow. It's probably best to follow Denver's lead and relax when and where we can!

Wow! It's Our 13 Month Lidaversary!

I cannot believe that 13 months have passed since our file was logged into the CCAA's system! I figured that 13 months would take FOREVER to go by but it really has been a whirlwind of activity. I hope the next 13 months go by as quickly so that Layla will be in my arms for Halloween 2009!!!

Our amazing Secret Pal strikes again!!

Our SP always outdoes herself but this time she blew us out of the
water! She is beyond generous with her thoughtful gifts and words. I
found this month's theme difficult but our SP sure didn't. We received
a gorgeous diaper bag stitched from Chinese fabric that is pastel green
with purple and gold blossoms. My breath left my body when I saw it.
I've been carrying it around the house and looking in the mirror.
Inside this marvellous creation was a "Ouchie" ice pack mouse that you
keep in the freezer, a Fisher Price cell phone, a pink fleece blanket
embroidered with the words "I love Mommy", a pink Munchkin shopping
cart cover and the book "Shaoey and Dot." To top it all off her
little girl drew us a butterfly on the outside of the box (a definite
keepsake for the SP scrapbook). SP, you touch our hearts with your innate ability to charm a smile from us even when we don't feel up to it. We are forever grateful for your kindness.

"The Secret" really works!

In my last post I discussed the book "The Secret" and how I was going to change my way of thinking. Well, I did and it worked!! My DH was offered the position we were praying and hoping for. It means we don't have to move which in turn means it won't affect our adoption process!!! I am so happy. If you haven't read this book go and get it NOW!!!