Almost there!

No, I don't mean Layla but it's something great all the same! After 7 months of building, 6 months living with my mom and 10 months since we started the process, our brand new house will be ready on Monday. I am really psyched about it and best of all...Rob is home to do the unpacking! I cannot believe that our dream house is almost a reality.

Holy !@#$

Okay, it's official I'm not really excited about this adoption process any more. I want Layla don't get me wrong! I want to be a mommy and I will wait the 3-7 years they're predicting in order for it to happen BUT the specialness of this journey has slowly eroded. Every day there are more questions about when and I'm sick to death of saying one year, a year and a half, two years. Now I just say I don't know. Is there a way to gain back the happy feeling? Perhaps a full months worth of referrals would do the trick.