China Update

The CCAA has referred babies to families with a LID up to and including January 31/06. It's predicted that February '06 will not be finished with the referrals until February 2009! Yes, that's how SsssLlllOooooWwwww this process is turning out to be!!!!

Nanny Cathy

This is the marvellous lady who devised the pattern for Layla's OHGWQ and then brought it to fruition!

Warm and Cuddly

Layla's OHGWQ is finally finished!! It is absolutely gorgeous. Nanny Cathy delivered it a few weeks ago. She cut all the material and pieced everything together and basically answered my prayers by doing it for me. Layla is so blessed to have such a beautiful keepsake created with Nanny's love. Nanny Cathy also made a smaller version of the OHGWQ as a special crib quilt. The picture shows Nanny Cathy signing the quilt.

Almost there!

No, I don't mean Layla but it's something great all the same! After 7 months of building, 6 months living with my mom and 10 months since we started the process, our brand new house will be ready on Monday. I am really psyched about it and best of all...Rob is home to do the unpacking! I cannot believe that our dream house is almost a reality.

Holy !@#$

Okay, it's official I'm not really excited about this adoption process any more. I want Layla don't get me wrong! I want to be a mommy and I will wait the 3-7 years they're predicting in order for it to happen BUT the specialness of this journey has slowly eroded. Every day there are more questions about when and I'm sick to death of saying one year, a year and a half, two years. Now I just say I don't know. Is there a way to gain back the happy feeling? Perhaps a full months worth of referrals would do the trick.

The Neverending Story

I've been neglecting my blog. I have a million reasons why but I guess the biggest one is denial. It's hard to come to terms with the realization that Layla may not be in my arms until 2011 or 2012. Yep, that's the latest news in this saga. Many agencies started circulating letters to their clients last week with this latest update. I simply find it difficult to remain positive in the face of such blatant negativity. As a result I guess the blog doesn't really make much sense...maybe when we're closer to our referral???
I think I may switch the focus of the blog now and then. Of course I need to do a few updates regarding things my SP has sent and a gorgeous outfit Poppy Bernie had delivered from China. Oh,Nanny Cathy has Layla's OHGWQ started...perhaps things aren't as bleak as they seem.